Entry 10: Nature of the Beast
At work I argue with my boss nearly everyday. But unlike most arguments, our arguments are trying to solve a common dilemma in the studio. What is the best way to organize digital images? Should we clean the studio or satisfy customers first? Is it well-crafted detail or unnecessary minutia? Usually our discussions bounce back and forth with either no simple solution or the two of us repeating each other in different views that refuse to back down. Either way, our arguments are most often very helpful and constructive, because our main goal is to understand each other and work closely in tandem to accomplish daily tasks.
That said, our arguments quickly subside and we get things done. But a few of these battles are still ongoing because of our nature. My boss is a charismatic artist who love to engage with people, but if anything turns south he may be unable to avoid it because he loves the engagement. He also loves to be generous, but there is a saying that goes "no good deed goes unpunished."
My true nature can be difficult for some people to discover, mostly because of my quiet and reserved personality that doesn't outwardly express it. There was a sort of game that some of my friends would play that involved trying to guess what animal-spirit a person is. Some people are owls because they are wise and such, while others can be dogs who are loyal and always playful. It was always tricky to pinpoint my animal-spirit because knowing a person's personality is required to figure out which animal-spirit they are. If I were to guess my animal-spirit, it would have to be a goat.
The animal-spirit of a goat has its virtues and vices. Firstly, nothing can seem impossible or daunting to a goat, such as mountains and cliff walls. Have you ever seen a mountain goat traverse vertically up a mountain? It's crazy stuff! But the counterpoint to a goat is that they are hardheaded and stubborn. While they climb a mountain, it can either be seen as a goat trying to reach a difficult goal or stubbornly trying to scale an unnecessary obstacle.
So I am a goat, metaphorically speaking, of course. Nothing seems impossible if I put my mind to it, and I can attempt to achieve it with a fierce determination, but at the same time I will often apply this hardheadedness to everyday tasks. An example is how my mother taught me to sweep before mopping, and countertop should be cleaned before any of that because you're supposed to work from top to bottom. In my mind, this is a very logical way of cleaning and I have always done this as a result, but when I am told by someone to only mop, I will often attempt to sweep first, otherwise you'll just be mopping a lot of dust and dirt all over the floor. More often than not, I will be steadfast and clean in a logical manner, but if I'm told that the other cleaning doesn't have to be done and that I should only mop, I will internally boil with anger because that's not the logical way to clean.
By nature, if I believe something should be done in a logical manner, I will stubbornly try to achieve that goal, no matter how great or mundane it is. A lot of times this helps me as a technical assistant because I will not give up on a computer issue until I have an explanation and solution of what caused the problem in the first place, and my natural problem-solving skills means that I can accomplish nearly anything (at least, anything technical, for the time being). But the vice of this nature is that I can be blinded by my stubbornness and I can get worked up trying to fix a minor problem.
So there's that, I bet most people would not have guessed that I can be a determined person and a stubborn fool in one package. But that is what defines me as a person, and I have to live with the fact that my strength can also be my weakness, and juggling the two is a mountain of a challenge in itself.
What's your animal-spirit? What is the virtue and vice of your nature, and how do you manage the two? Anyways, thanks for reading! Please leave comments and feedback; they are greatly appreciated! And don't forget that next Friday (March 28) is the Senior Show at Georgetown College! So if you're in the Georgetown/Kentucky area, make sure you stop by and support the artists of the future! Check my calendar for dates and times.