Entry 102: Planning Ahead
One can often lose sight of the things in front of him/her, like time, for example.
When it comes down to my sleeping habits, I often stay up all night to work on things, because the house is quiet. But as an unfortunate consequence, I cannot sleep in because my mother's child care become too noisy in the early morning. As a result, I throw out any opportunity to wake up early by trying to get one more hour of sleep. I could get a head start on my day, with a clear mind and refreshed body, yet I always drag myself towards the snooze button.
How should I resolve this habit? Well, a different abode would solve a few things, but that leaves me in a financial predicament. A different job may help with that, but that leaves me with transportation issues, too. I have a good setup at my current location, but this "contentment" is also slowing me down.
So far, my animation project is at its usual crawl. The scenes take time to animate, especially if I'm emphasizing quality in the work. Every time I daydream about my animation, I am mesmerized by the beauty it can achieve, but I get grounded back to reality when I realize that I'm still in the pre-production stage, which will take months before I get to see any of the 3D scenes.
Currently, I'm trying to save up for the 3D animation software and/or a different living place, along with a car. Money is not a major concern, at the moment, but time is a huge factor. I can be overwhelmed by anxiety just by think of the near future, but that's not how I enjoy living my life.
I enjoy working at my job and helping people, as well as spending time with my family, but I know I can do more. I want to do more. All I have to do, I think, is to detach from some things so I can move forward, otherwise months with turn into years.
What's my next move? A new job, perhaps...