Entry 84: Escapism
Who else has that feeling that you wish you could just escape from everything, like take a vacation or get lost with nature? I'm not talking about a permanent escape, but rather a temporary eject-from-society kind of feeling. Like if a coworker won't stop talking about he-said she-said nonsense, or if that one guy kept cutting you off on the highway and you just wanted to rear-end his nice Mercedes.
Just to be clear, I don't have these exact encounters in my life, but similar events give me the same feeling. That one feeling where I just want to freeze time and just relax, or hide in a library where everything is quiet.
Each person has their own escape route, whether it be a road trip, jamming out to loud music, eating their worries away (only causes more worries), or going to the movies. Personally, I enjoy fortifying myself in a secluded area and escape to a different reality. Sometimes I listen to some heartfelt music and reflect on life. Sometimes I watch the same movie over and over to pick up on new things that I've missed before. And other times I create and explore new worlds in the virtual environments of video games.
At times this seems selfish; escaping responsibility that others might need of you only to satisfy your own needs. But at the same time, those other people have their own escape routes, too, although they might not see it that way. And whether you are extrovert and you have to escape into a new crowd of people or you are introverted and you have to escape from your own friends and family, we all need that satisfaction of ejecting, which can vary from time to time.
Sometimes I like to walk on the edge of both reality and the refuge by plugging in some earbuds and listening to a podcast while working at the same time. Multitasking. In a sense, I can present myself to the responsibilities of life while zoning out in a different world. Sometimes I'll even daydream, creating stories and narratives that defies reality.