Entry 143: Letting Go
A lady I know had a death in her family a few weeks ago. It was her dad. From what I've heard, the father was losing his grip on life after his wife passed away, so his health succumbed over time and he passed away after much grief.
Now that he is gone, the daughter is now in grief, and she seems to be following the same path of grief.
It's odd to me that a person who can finally rest from all this pain can still inflict suffering to others after they have passed. Unintentionally, of course, yet it is still a bewilderment to me, since I have never been through that pain before. In a way, I feel that logic and a Christian belief may have altered my perception of the fact, but I cannot speak on behalf of others.
As I watch this lady slowly slip away, all that can be done is to "be there for her," but I understand her feeling of wanting to let go of everything. When you reflect by yourself, in your own deep and personal thoughts, the mind tends to wander. Sometimes you think about the grand scheme of things and how small of a role you play. No matter how many friends you may have, how much your family loves you, or all the things you have accomplished, sometimes your thoughts wander into dark places.
And sometimes you feel like letting go.