Entry 163: Pride and Guilt
When I started working at Amazon back in October, I was assigned to the logistics department, so my main task was problem-solving package-related issue. After the holiday season died down, I was transferred to the normal scanning department. However, the main logistics managers wanted my assistance, since I was highly knowledgeable in their department, so now I split half my time with them and the rest in the scanning area.
It felt good to be sought out for my hard work and skills, and I was glad enough to shared this knowledge with a coworker who wanted to join the ranks of problem-solving. He was an eager and smart man, but after a recent misunderstanding, he lost his opportunity as a backup problem-solver.
Part of the issue was that I was willing to rotate out with him and give him a chance to work as a problem-solver, since he was eager to do so, but the logistic managers and a number of other people preferred my experience over his, so much that they almost violently phased him out of rotation.
I kept hearing people say how much they prefer me over him.
Pride and guilt. I tried to fight for his position, but they only needed a few problem-solvers and he wasn't in their top choice. I felt honored that the managers catered to my position, but I felt as if it was fault that everyone kept pushing him away, in spite of his willingness to learn.