Entry 173: How to be Afraid
I just finished watching the movie Sing, an animated film about every-day critters who aspire to reach their dreams through a singing competition. At first, a grand prize was the initial incentive that drew in the animals, but in the end it was their passion that ultimately made their hopes a reality.
That was something I had during college. I'd enjoyed the admiration my fellow classmates gave to me whenever I surprised myself with a unique piece of art, but I wasn't creating for glory; I would create works of art because I wanted affirmation that my passion was worth it.
Art is a challenging career, not due to the skill, but due to the criticism. We often worry about those not understanding our hard work, and trying to invest value into something that may not have a monetary value, which the world is quick to remind you about. But after watching the Sing movie, the part that sticks with me the most was Mr. Buster Moon's quote, "Don't let fear stop you from doing the thing you love."
I am afraid. Afraid that my art will fail. Afraid of being unrecognized. Afraid that I will lose my passion.
Well, to quote my mantra, "there will always be someone better or worse than yourself," so why worry? I am afraid, but I cannot let that stop me from being who I am.